From the recordings Hopefully More than a Blanket of 'I' Statements and Hopefully More than a Blanket of 'I' Statements (Streaming)
Lyrics
*I must have been out of my mind. Look at you. Why don’t you do something with your life?! Sit around here all day; you contribute nothing to society. You’re just taking up space. How can I be with someone like you?!* I’m having trouble having trouble sleeping by myself. You and I both know that that had never been an issue. It’s hard accepting losing take-for-granted comfortability of then without my wasting breath to say that I miss you. We can all repress depression in endeavoring our thickest skin. It’s faulted by the mechanism being only human conditioning. I’m numb and drunk as fuck: due diligence. I remember you saying that I shouldn’t be so quick to judge for which I know now is a flaw I am responsible. It’s made me see that I’ve become a character, myself, for me to pick apart and treat as though if I were on the outside rung. Opinion shaped the person that I am and that is good and all, but how much was that instigating argument? Gratuitous and negative to nurturing relations that was ultimately grounds for your untimely relocationing. I awaken every day with just as much a struggle as you do, convincing me it’s worth it that I still do what I do, a peer to which “complacent” as an adjective, in all grammatic senses of the word, is a taboo. I remember Robert Rivers warning me not to be overbearing with you for my own good and should’ve listened but I didn’t. Life is but my living best described as being tentative, and memories are my re-colored black-and-whited images. I’m sitting on a wealth to which I’ll never have again, and by the time you hear this song, it might mean less to you instead. And it’s your birthday today. I didn’t even need Facebook to remind me. I didn’t even change my status to something overly dramatic in the hopes that you might read it and respond to it by not saying anything. I am not a mess. I have everything so not-figured-out that you can call it sanity. I’m drowning in a sitcom marathon of me and all my poor decision-making. It’s amazing when you look at how the times change. It’s amazing how we’re trained to not let go of what will stay the same. I’m so sick of riding on a never-ending rollercoaster, but the problem’s that I’m most if I’m not all of what’s to blame. *Please! Please! I take it all back! Everything! I take it all back—every word! I love you. I love you! I can’t live without you! I’ll do anything!*